Spiritual battle!
Ok. It took me really long to get this. I just realised I’m in a spiritual battle.
I mean like why I keep struggling over and over the same thing. Because whenever I want to recover, Satan will try to stop me and attempt to throw me back into unworthiness, condemnation etc. And it has been working so far.
I just realised I’m in a spiritual battle. Satan wants to prevent me from enjoying a life of intimacy with God. Satan doesn’t want me to enjoy the life God intended me. I’m under attack!
And I need to fight back!
Like someone said before, if I take one step forward today, I have a higher chance to stand up against it tmr. But if I step back today, it would be harder to muster the next feet forward.
Today on the way home, just worshipped God with “Desert Song” over and over again. Prayed and everything before entering home.
This is a battle. And before you forget, you are in this too.
[2 Samuel 23:10]
“but he stood his ground and struck down the Philistines till his hand grew tired and froze to the sword. The LORD brought about a great victory that day. The troops returned to Eleazar, but only to strip the dead.”
Stand my ground and fight, God will bring about the victory.
I’m still learning how to really walk with God. I suppose this will take a lifetime, but yep, I really need to walk with God. A spiritual battle cannot be done alone. There’s no reason God does not want to see a breakthrough, victory in your life. He longs to see you walking in freedom, his plans, much more than you long to.
God, help me to learn to trust you. Help me to trust in your character. God, grow me. AHH! I want to grow to my best every minute.
There’s a difference between growth and intentional growth. Intentional growth is going to take a hell lot of blood out of me, but that’s what we are here on earth for right? And time is running out!
God, you exposed me to my imperfections tonight. God, instead of feeling condemned about it, unworthiness, I know that God you will complete the good work in me. But first Lord, I want to make my heart soft so you may take over.
Satan, I will stand my ground.
